sick and tired of ppl making use of me.

A tribute

always stuck in that "friends" zone.

ALWAYS.

Last paper tmr, fucksake, i feel so angsty now, probably 'cause i am still stuck in fuckin london doing fucking exams.. But thank god, it's all coming to an end now (take two) but i still gotta wait two weeks here before the results are out. URGH. I shall only think about all the regrets i have had for the whole year only after i know that i have passed the year and have at least two months of freedom. Having to do these resits fucked up plans, firstly, fucked up a 6 week research attachment in Singapore with some National Institute of Infectious Diseases which would had been fuckin cool, secondly, wanted to spend time with friends that were goin overseas for studies, esp yisze and han siang.. hope you guys are having a great time at australia. damn thinking about han siang makes me think about the beef noodles man. oh well we only have to wait till decemeber.. haha.

Oh wells, i guess that in life u can never expect your "plans" to go smoothly, that's one thing i learnt in the past month stuck in london, that u have to expect the unexpected everyday, anything can happen.. such as a bloody thunderstorm in the summer! fucking hell, fucking poured for the past week! but one thing i know for sure,

I DO NOT WANT TO DO OR TALK OR LOOK AT ANYTHING RELATED TO MEDICINE IN THE SUMMER.

Dun get me wrong, i have a passion to be a doctor (apparently), butI am overloaded on information already.


I wish that ppl would not think im a medical student from London and go "Woah, you must be so smart/damn rich!!", like come the fuck on, what am i suppose to reply to that? i dun like carrying that burden of being a medical student, of being needing to be the cream of the crop, yes im studying medicine overseas, but i am still a JB boy. My heart lies there and i miss home every fucking day. I know where my roots' at, I still enjoy the chilled out lifestyle back home, I dun pile myself in books all day, yes for the past 4 months. I just dun want ppl, esp my so called friends, to look at me differently..

Bigups to yue mern, that bro of mine came down a few times and taught me how to skate, thanks man, been a pleasure.. esp the last time u came down, timed it really well like two weeks before the exams! haha. yeah, definitely meeting up in the summer an tear the skate parks APART..

I cant wait for my last paper to be over....
I wanna be random

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)

2. Put it on shuffle

3. Press play

4. For every question, type the song that's playing

5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

6. Don't lie

Opening Credits: Lean Back - Fat Joe

Waking Up: This is Our Song - Code Red

First Day of School: Another Race - Effiel 65

Falling in Love: I Wanna Be there - Blessed Union Of Souls

Getting it on: Message in a bottle - John Mayer

Fight Song: Satisfaction - Benny Benassi

Breaking Up: More More More - Rachel Stevens

Prom: Yeah! - Usher

Life: Tears From Heaven - Eric Clapton

Mental Breakdown: Turn Me On - Norah Jones

Driving: Adrienne (acoustic) - The Calling

Flashback: Fell in Love with a boy - Joss Stone

Wedding: Happy Days - Happy Days Theme Song

Birth of child: Right Thurr- Chingy

Final Battle: The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice

Death Scene: Chariot - Gavin DeGraw

Funeral Song: True - Ryan Cabrera

oo. been ages since i last blogged, this thing is virtually dead, but at least i can do something when I am so bored of studying.. Well, coming back from the library with Kev (kev, you are NOT clifton.. ahhaha) on the bus, I made a random comment about how it seems that we have been studying all our lives. It suddenly struck me that, this 3-4 months have went by so fast, everyday has been so mundane ( other than Dj Tiesto!!) and just buried under the thick medical books.. And not to mention the pseudo depression that comes with it... At least now it's all coming to an end.. I hope it is all worth it. The year has honestly flashed by quickly and there is no time to reflect and recollect what has happened. I guess this is how london is. Fast paced city, time just flies by and you wonder where it has gone to.. suddenly, you have got final year exams to go through, and it's dat time of the year again.

Summer plans:
1) Not have ANY recollection of 18th May 2007.
2) Amsterdam
3) Research Attachment in Singapore
4) KL for the World Badminton Championships
5) Learn Malay (finally)
6) Shuffle well ( Jtea man, we gotta hit it hard!)
7) Skateboard maybe?


Judging from my New Year's Resolution, all the above might not happen, but it's always good to have plans. Cant wait to GO HOME!.

2 quotes i would keep with me forever..

Zaz: " believe in yourself, 'cause no one will if you don't"

Yellow fever " there's no point putting in effort into something you cannot change, just live with it"